Out with the black and in with the bright – this room will be soon be “mine”… or at least part of the studio apartment my parents are helping me set up. In the next couple of months the bed with its black comforter will go, along with all the other miscellaneous things that have collected here. And then I’ll renovate it. Well, basically just create a mini art studio and add a mini kitchen table with a mini couch and a mini fridge. Yeah, a lot of mini happening here. 😉 Continue reading Upstairs Apartment Living
I am a grateful person, I think, but when I get caught up in the striving to protect myself, the frustration of my limitations, and the hoping-to-clean-up my messy life I do a fine dance with discontentment.
And today, when the US of A is getting all grateful on me for lofty things I’m over here thinking, “God, I just want to get through this day in one piece emotionally. And also, it would be nice if I didn’t have to exit the Thanksgiving dinner to dry heave.”
I love people and making new friends and socializing. It’s my nature. But I have a fatal tendency to destroy my best relationships.
No really! I do!
I would love to blame stuff on circumstances or personalities or differences but the reality is that I’m better at making friends than keeping them. And I don’t know how you are but for me I cannot multitask emotionally when under stress. Someone always gets cut. Or burnt or hurt. Continue reading Monday’s Confessions: I’ve Handled Relationships Poorly
Last week Althea Stoltzfoos did a photo shoot for my goddaughter, Paige Nah’Liyah, and I.
Althea is newly engaged to the man-of-her-dreams so she is currently juggling wedding plans and a trip to Nepal (leaving this week possibly). She was able to quickly edit a few pictures from the photo shoot which I hope to post to my Instagram account @maritastoltzfus in the next day or so. Continue reading Meet My Goddaughter
I expected a lot of things about the 30’s. I mean, I didn’t enter my 20’s thinking: hey, I’m going to create a really odd belief system about people older than me. No, the things just came to me through my culture and the people I socialized with and the way I tried to blend in with what I thought might be “normal”. Funny thing is I didn’t realize till now just how silly they were: Continue reading On Expectations and Turning 30
A year ago today I swallowed my last pill from a cocktail of ES prescription painkillers/antidepressants/muscle relaxants which I had been on for a very long time. I was promptly thrown into a hellish withdrawal Continue reading Don’t Walk Alone
Brave isn’t traveling solo across the ocean to a foreign hospital for medical help. Brave is getting up every morning and choosing to love&laugh in the face of pain.
Brave isn’t living life with no questions. Brave is facing hard life questions every day and keeping your mental capacity intact. Continue reading Pure Bravery