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Monday’s Confession: Some Days I Don’t Walk Steady

I was flat on my back for 3 days over the weekend; think in-door, in-bed, and staring at a white ceiling. Thanks to my chronic pain journey, and a bad flare-up, I could not walk one.single.step. After a couple days of laying there solo my spontaneous friend drove 4 hours just so she could lie in bed beside me communally staring at the ceiling. Continue reading Monday’s Confession: Some Days I Don’t Walk Steady

Monday’s Confession: I “Get It” Now

Today I really do “get it” – how small I am, how big God is, and how embracing these proportions in my heart changes my perspective on my pain.

A perspective change should actually be called An Everything Changer because it really can change everything, especially how I view God and His work in my life. Continue reading Monday’s Confession: I “Get It” Now

When Life Intimidates Me

I’ve been fairly silent lately*, at least on Facebook and e-mail. I do continue to max my DWQ (daily word quota) at home though – just ask my family. It has become a Terrible Favorite of mine to start talking and then proceed to see how many sentences I can string together before pausing for air. You can ask my family about that too.

But in the last 24 hours I have been mulling over this paragraph from the Jesus Calling devotional:

Don’t let any circumstances intimidate you. The more challenging your day, the more of My Power I place at your disposal. You seem to think that I empower you equally each day, but this is not so. Your tendency upon awakening is to assess the difficulties ahead of you, measuring them against your average strength. This is an exercise in unreality.” Continue reading When Life Intimidates Me

When Messy Is Just So Messy

A year ago I was in the middle of the worst faith crisis of my life. I felt like God had completely left me down emotionally, and physically my body was freaking out. Let me explain “freaking out”: rapidly losing weight, unable to keep food down, in excruciating pain, so tired I could fall asleep standing up and in so much pain I would scream in my sleep if I was laying down, having panic attacks hourly, nose bleeds, vomiting, a lot of vomiting, diarrhea, stomach cramps, dizziness, and body tremors. Continue reading When Messy Is Just So Messy

Monday’s Confessions: I’ve Handled Relationships Poorly

I love people and making new friends and socializing. It’s my nature. But I have a fatal tendency to destroy my best relationships.

No really! I do!

I would love to blame stuff on circumstances or personalities or differences but the reality is that I’m better at making friends than keeping them. And I don’t know how you are but for me I cannot multitask emotionally when under stress. Someone always gets cut. Or burnt or hurt. Continue reading Monday’s Confessions: I’ve Handled Relationships Poorly